I have tried my hardest not to complain about 2020. It hasn't been easy, but because 2019 was such a hard year for us, I feel like I am able to see goodness in bad situations. But ya'll...I am D.O.N.E. .
When Carlie's college graduation and Makena's high school graduation got canceled due to the "pandemic " I was done. But I didn't forsee we would be planning a wedding in it as well as dealing with a very demanding bride (aka MY DAUGHTER). God love her. I thought I was getting a February wedding (I was pushing for May) but it turns out, she wants to get married in NOVEMBER. Remember how in my last post I said there were some things I couldn't talk about yet...this is it!
Carl and I have talked until we were blue in the face. Our problem is not her choice in a mate (necessarily), not even the fact that they are young (we were 19 and 20), but they have only known each other for 9 months (I know there are success stories, but Carl and I dated for 3 years before we were married)! Her reasoning on moving up the date is so they can move in their house together. Really?. I love this determined child with all of my heart, but sometimes I just want to thump her in the forehead! I have stepped back about as far as I can. I have prayed into the wee hours of the morning, many days.
I made the comment to my dad that God only has a few weeks to stop the madness, to which he replied, "He allows us to make our choices and He doesn't work on our time." And I know this. But I still want to stomp my feet and throw a fit about it!
Thankfully, I have two other kids and my Carl to distract me. I have started a gratitude journal to remind me of all the ways God provides and moves in my life. I have even been trying new recipes (you guys know I don't really love cooking), and I have started working out again (but working out through sciatica is no fun at all). All in hopes of "making it through" what is supposed to be a happy and exciting time. Okay, I am done talking about that subject for now.
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