"Lord, fix me because sometimes I'm the problem". There are moments in life when it's easier to point fingers than to look in the mirror. We notice what others did wrong, how they hurt us, or how they made life harder. But if I'm being honest, sometimes the biggest problem in my life...is me. I don't like admitting that. It's uncomfortable to say, "Lord, I've got attitudes, habits, and patterns that are standing in the way of peace and growth." But the truth is, I don't just need God to fix situations; I need Him to fix me.
It's humbling to realize that I can be short-tempered, unforgiving, stubborn, or even blind to the ways I hurt others. Sometimes my words cut deeper than I intended. Sometimes I hold grudges a little too long. And sometimes, instead of praying for God to change me, I pray for Him to change everyone else.
But the Holy Spirit reminds me that real transformation begins with me. Psalm 139:23-24 says, "Search me, O God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts. See if there is any offensive way in me and lead me in the way everlasting." Friend, that prayer takes courage. Because when we ask God to search us, He will reveal the hard truths we'd rather ignore.
Left to myself, I drift toward selfishness, pride, and fear. But when I let God in--when I ask Him to strip away my stubbornness and replace it with grace--He shapes me into someone who looks more like Jesus.
And isn't that the goal? Not to prove I'm right, not to win every argument, not to stay comfortable in my old ways- but to be changed; to reflect Christ's love in how I live, speak, and respond.
If you catch me whispering, "Lord fix me," just know I'm not being dramatic--I'm being real. Because sometimes, I really am the problem. And that's okay, because God doesn't leave me stuck in my mess. He keeps working on me, one rough edge at a time.
And hey, if you're brave enough to admit you've been "the problem" too, you're in good company. We're all a work in progress, and thank goodness God doesn't give up on us!
Much Love,
Beth
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