About a year ago I stumbled across one of my favorite songs (even still today). Hillary Scott and the Scott Family sing a little song called "Thy Will". When I first heard it, I had absolutely no idea how much I would relate.
The struggles are real people. Real and they suck! When I started on this homeschool journey I was sure (and I still am) that I heard God loud and clear. This was the path that I was to take. We soared right our through our first year and never looked back. Then over the summer things got hard. Finances are stretched unbelievably thin, which stretches patience thin...and so on and so forth. I just gave up on God in a sense. I know He is good but my circumstances sure haven't felt good. I kind of just quit praying for a bit and when I did pray I was so mad at Him for what I was going through. Questions like, "why did you lead me here and just leave me?" surfaced almost daily...and I felt bad about that because deep down I knew better. I know that He hasn't left me, I know that He sees and hears me, and I know that He has plans of goodness for me. So I prayed what I knew to pray as sincerely as I knew how, "Thy Will be done, Lord".
Finally, I have talked myself off of the ledge of doubt and back into the arms of God, and you know what? He has shown his goodness to me through several blessings this week.
I also kept thinking of one of my Mom's favorite verses:
"For I know the plans I have for you declares the Lord....plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." Jeremiah 29:11
Much Love,
Beth
The struggles are real people. Real and they suck! When I started on this homeschool journey I was sure (and I still am) that I heard God loud and clear. This was the path that I was to take. We soared right our through our first year and never looked back. Then over the summer things got hard. Finances are stretched unbelievably thin, which stretches patience thin...and so on and so forth. I just gave up on God in a sense. I know He is good but my circumstances sure haven't felt good. I kind of just quit praying for a bit and when I did pray I was so mad at Him for what I was going through. Questions like, "why did you lead me here and just leave me?" surfaced almost daily...and I felt bad about that because deep down I knew better. I know that He hasn't left me, I know that He sees and hears me, and I know that He has plans of goodness for me. So I prayed what I knew to pray as sincerely as I knew how, "Thy Will be done, Lord".
Finally, I have talked myself off of the ledge of doubt and back into the arms of God, and you know what? He has shown his goodness to me through several blessings this week.
I also kept thinking of one of my Mom's favorite verses:
"For I know the plans I have for you declares the Lord....plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." Jeremiah 29:11
Much Love,
Beth
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